Destitute...

So I've been feeling particularly lonely lately... The ONE good friend I had down here is so self involved that she doesn't even notice that she's hurting my feelings. And it's ok... I get it.... She's got a LOT going on. She's in this awesome new relationship with a man that makes her VERY happy, she just moved into a new house, and just got a new job. I'm really, REALLY happy for her. I spent 3 days helping her move & being gitty with her about all the amazing new things that are happening in her life.

Then I told her 4 weeks ago that Jon and I are transferring to Cali at the end of this month & that I wanted to spend some time with her before we moved. So I have invited her to damn near EVERYTHING that I've been doing - even things I'm not doing. I've invited her to the gym, to the bar, to dinner, to parties we're having, etc... And I've given her ample notice, so it's not like it's a last minute thing either. And EVERY time she has had one excuse or another - I've spent damn near a month trying to spend time with her and have been shot down every time. She moved 8 minutes away from me, so it's not like it's far or anything. After today... I'm done trying... I've deleted her from my phone & have pretty much written her off.

What hurts is that she is the ONLY real friend I've had down here other than the friend's Jon & I have at the boat and it's not like I can just invite them out to do something when Jon doesn't feel like going out. Ricky & I have gone out together, Dave & I have gone out together, but we live together so it's not like I just called up Bogs or Mike & asked him if he wanted to go out somewhere. Altho, Mike still owes me a ghost ride, lol.

My feelings are just hurt that the ONE girl-friend I had down here is so wrapped up in her own life to give two shits about how I might feel or that she may infact never see me again...